Tuesday, May 22, 2012 , 12:59 AM
i always felt like giving up , every single time. nobody really understands the pain i'm going through no matter how hard i try . i wanted someone to understand , so that I know , I'm not alone . going through ALL this shit alone isn't something I can cope . but behind all these , my smile covers everything up . That's right , my smile .
I still cry myself to sleep occasionally , i still have the past stuck in my mind , i still think of you everyday , I still miss you , I still visit your Facebook and breakdown , I still yearn to see you , I still wanna get back with you , I still love you .
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' do you know how it feels ? thinking tht you're gradually improving ..
both emotionally and mentally . but thn your heart starts to fuck you up again .
your heart plays with your brain , you feel tht fucking pain .
and thn you just breakdown and find yourself right at where you started from . '
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' i know it gets hard sometimes but i could never leave your side , no matter what i say .
cause if i wanted to go , i would be gone by now .
but i really need you near me to keep my mind off th edge .
if i wanted to leave , i would have left by now .
but you're th only one tht knows me , better thn i know myself . '