Monday, June 13, 2011 , 1:25 AM
this th only place where i can vent everything out . cause i really love you , & i really do care . everytime seeing you piss-d off makes my heart breaks . but you choose to keep to yourself , instead of telling me . yet all i can do is keep quiet and pretend tht i dont know anything about it . and it all hurts th same . there are so many things i want to tell you , yet so many things i want to hide . do you remember , we were sitting so close , & th only thing tht matter most was you . & in those moments , i felt as thought th world stopped . thts when i realise , i'd rather sit next to you thn be with anyone else . i never wanted to fall for you . i mean , we're like best of friends but tht does not really mean we cant be something more thn tht right ? i tried to shake it off , tried to forget , but th truth is i cant . i cant forget th way you look at me whenever you talk to me , whenever you make little jokes out of everything . :B th way you did silly things just to make me smile . th way you gave little embraces just to make me laugh endlessly . th way you picked little fights just so tht we could make up . th way tht you just dont care about what anybody thinks , even thou thts what i pretend to be . th way you lift me up when im down . th way you loved unconditionally about all th people you cared . those are th things i just cant even dream of , forgetting about you . because underneath all of th laughter & moments we've been through , i fell in love . i fell in love with th boy , with you . its not just because of what you did , what you do . its because of who you were thn , who you are now , & who you will be . but its also because of who you arent . so what if you aint good looking , so what if you've had a bad temper or attitude . i know it sounds weird , i used to think it was weird too . i used to stay up all night thinking about you , about me , about how i feel . how could i care so much about you . we were just friends , no more no less . i loved you because i just did . & loving someone never needed any explanation . it worked for romeo & juliet , & all those who have loved so deeply before . so why wouldnt it work for me ? i must have sound like such a fool , letting you into my most hidden emotions . but i just dont care . i want you to know , even if it means my words would be pushed aside . i cared about you . i want to be with you , i want to be there for you through anything & everything . i hope you feel th same too , but if you dont its okay . these memories are definitely enough to last me a lifetime .
KERIN; RIN .