Wednesday, May 11, 2011 , 7:39 PM
i once thou i'll never find someone tht i love as much as S , but i guess i was wrong . trying very hard to give up on you and move on with with my own life but i cant . you always linger in my mind , and i cant seems to shake it off no matter what i try . im sorry , but i guess i've fallen too deep for you . those feelings were so much clearer and deeper thn th past . idk what im gonna do now , cause seriously i dont have th courage to continue hanging on anymore . i tried showing tht you were all i love , but i guess you just dont care . thou you were sweet to me , always there for me but thts not really what i wanted . for th past few days were th happiest time ever tht could happen to me , im serious . cause nobody have ever made me feel tht way before , th one who can give me th love tht i wanted . i have got no idea what to do next , yet im trying to erase every sweet memories spent with you & tell myself you'll never linger around my mind & heart . before everything even started properly it got to end like this . didnt expect things to end up this way . someone asked me alot of things which knocked me into my senses . God is really making things difficult for me . i clearly know what i want & i clearly know how my heart feels . but i just dont know what to do now . i dont even know if there are still chances between us . you were th one who let me felt the happiness i really wanted . i used to feel that im the most blissful person in the world because you were still here with me . but not now anymore , i guess . those memories are deeply etched in my heart & it wont fade away . but it all hurts th same and in th end , im th one who's left broken and crying myself to sleep . so screw tht fucking bad timing . soon , everything will be a distant memories . lets just pretent tht there's never once a thing tht happened between us . forget about everything , and start all over . i hope im able to do so .
KERIN; RIN .